Saturday, July 20, 2013

{{10 Day Blog Challenge-Day 1}}

Since I'm on a roll, I figured why stop now? I'm going to attempt a 10 Day Blog Challenge*



*Disclaimer: This 10 Day Blog Challenge may indeed take more than 10 days.

Okay here goes, TEN things you want to say to TEN different people right now {{in no particular order}}:

I.
  • You were right. It was a show. I only wished you'd have told me differently. Maybe I would have realized it.
  • I've picked up the phone to call you on more than one occasion but I never dial your number.
  • I miss you.
  • There are so many days I think that we've been through so much, we can't possibly throw it all away.
  • You look incredibly happy and that makes me happy, you deserve it.
  • It breaks my heart that I'm not part of your life anymore.
  • You have always cut right through me with your words, but deep down I don't believe you really think those things, or do you?
  • You'll always be my first best friend.
  • You've always had a life I envied.
  • I still think you're one of the most beautiful people I've ever met.
II.
  • I saw your picture the other day and it didn't make my heart hurt.
  • I wished I could have gotten closure another way, but it was the closure I needed.
  • I never meant to hurt you. I am truly sorry for the way things finally ended.
  • I didn't/don't know who you are anymore but I believe I got to experience a side of you that no one else ever has.
  • I hope you find happiness and peace in your life
  • I'm so greatful that I don't compare anyone to you any longer.
  • I hope you'll be faithful to the 'one'.
  • You put a lot on me that I couldn't handle emotionally. 
  • You were right, I had met someone else. But it wasn't the same as before. It was over between you and I. Finally.
  • You showed me what I did and did not want for me life, and for that I'll always be thankful.



III.
  • I admire you, your marriage and your life..
  • I miss you, your husband, and your sweet children.
  • You did a lot for me that I'll never forget.
  • I always felt I'd let you down when I got divorced.
  • Because of that, you were the last person I told and why I've subconsciously kept my distance.
  • You're one of the sweetest, most genuine people I've ever met.
  • My life is forever changed crossing your path.
  • Reading your husband's Christmas letter is one of the highlights of my holiday.
  • Thank you for introducing me to Friday Night Lights-it is by far one of my favorite television series.
  • I hope to be 1/2 the parent you are to your children. 
IV.
  • If I could give you every single penny back, I would.
  • You were the best 'parents' to me, I'd ever had.
  • I always admired how you built your business from the ground up.
  • I've considering writing a million times, but because how much time has passed, I thought it would be inappropriate.
  • I didn't know how else to deal with it. I wish I could have reached out, but I couldn't. I didn't think I deserved to. 
  • You were one helluva business woman. I admired that, too. 
  • I miss camp. 
  • You spoiled me. Rotten. I can't thank you enough. 
  • Decorating the Christmas tree is still one of my favorite memories
  • And though I couldn't have predicted the end in a million years, I am forever greatful our lives crossed paths.
V.
  • You have forever changed me.
  • I truly believe you're my soul mate.
  • I can't imagine a single day of my life without you in it.
  • Although I falter with confidence often, I've never felt so beautiful as I do with you.
  • You're the first person that has never tried to change me. Thank you.
  • I have never been so open and honest with anyone in my life. You know my deepest, darkest secrets and I wouldn't have it any other way.
  • I hate every second that you're gone but I admire how much passion you have for your profession. 
  •  You're the smartest man I've ever met. 
  • You challenge me every day, in a good way, and it's one of the things I love about you.
  • Seeing you with a child melts my heart over and over again. I can't wait to have your child. You're going to be the most amazing daddy.



VI.
  • I don't know why you never try to make plans with me. It drives me bananas. But, I don't initiate plans either. 
  • I love your children as if they were my own blood.
  • You have everything I want and sometimes I think you don't realize that. 
  • I truly believe we are connected in a way that defies logic
  • Thank you for introducing me to running
  • I miss seeing you weekly. 
  • Thank you for opening my eyes up to new experiences
  •  You're a phenomenal mother
  • I really need to/want to learn ASL. You inspire me to do so.
  • I'm proud of the young woman you've become
VII.
  • I saw your photo the other day and was taken back. Your life has caught up to you.
  • I used to think you ruined me, but now I know how strong I really am.
  • I wish you would have gotten professional help and stuck with it.
  • You're very smart and you threw that away.
  • You've missed more of my life than you experienced. 
  • I wish I knew the truth about my brother. Somewhere out there is someone that shares 1/2 of my DNA and it makes me sad I'll never get to know him. I'm probably an Aunt. 
  • I have your FB page saved as a favorite, so I can check in on you from time to time. 
  • I'm so envious of all my friends that spend time with their mothers. I'll never have that. You took that from me.
  • I listen to the same song every mother's day, "I wonder" by Kellie Pickler.
  • I think I developed my eclectic taste in music from you.


VIII.
  • I wish you weren't so passive aggressive. 
  • I know I wasn't your choice, but I should have been an option you chose.
  • I don't understand why or how you don't want anything to do with me.
  • Between you and VII, I've been excluded from knowing my 'family'
  • I wish I could be part of my brother's lives, but the situation makes it complicated. 
  • Stop contacting me on Facebook. You're an adult and I'm an adult. But, you're still the parent. If you want to be part of my life, pick up the phone. 
  • I gave you ZERO trouble. I don't know why you always acted like I was so delinquent. 
  • I don't know why you never stood up for me. I was/am your child. I deserved more than that. 
  • I won't keep my children from you unless you treat me disrespectfully.
  • I've thought about calling a million times, putting everything under the bridge, but it's less stressful this way.


IX.
  • When we actually had a conversation that didn't involve country music, I breathed a sigh of relief.
  • I don't know why, but you were one person I wanted so desperately to like me. 
  • You're by far one of the funniest people I've ever met. 
  • I have so much fun with you.
  • I talk to you more than your husband now. When did that happen?
  • You never had anything to worry about. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. 
  • I was astonished the other day when you initiated a hug. Ha. 
  • You look better in those pants than I ever did. I'm always so damn envious. 
  • You're also one of the most patient, easy going people I've ever met. I could learn from you in that respect. 
  • I can't imagine going to a country concert without you. Concert Buddies for Life. {Said in the voice of Ted}
X.
  •  People have said that we were an unlikely pairing
  • I don't always understand your connection to social media which makes me seem like a bitch. For that, I'm sorry. It's taken me a while to realize that's just part of you. 
  • Your workout posts annoyed me for a span of time. Mostly because I felt like you were acting superior after giving me such a hard time about counting calories etc earlier in the year.  I'm over that now and I hope you forgive me. {{I also don't think they were meant to 'act superior', it's just how I interpreted it at that time.}}
  • I'm really proud of your progress and your passion towards working out. 
  • I struggle with long distance relationships. Sometimes I need to be reeled back in because I can very easily put up a barrier. 
  • I want to start up weekly calls again. I felt more connected to you that way. 
  • I can't wait for you to meet Mr. Right and fall madly in love. That's my wish for you.
  • I hate seeing you once a year. 
  • I'm really proud of you for not settling for less than you deserve. 
  • You're a source of clarity that I haven't found in anyone else. 











And now that I've finally finished this post, I realize why I don't blog more often. It makes me cry. Aint nobody got time for dat!



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